An Update On My Mental Health

 Hello there,

I hope all of you are having a fantastic Thanksgiving week. Today, I wanted to give an update on my mental health - which declined over the past several months to a very low point (but not near where I've been well of a decade ago). 

God knows over the past several months, I've really declined. I'll say that I was (and still am) irritated with everything going on in this world. There is also a lot that makes me sad, like those who have lost family due to this pandemic, especially now around the Holidays. Losing family during this time is not easy at all. I'm very sorry to anyone in the community that has recently lost any family whether it's due to this pandemic or something else. You are in my thoughts and prayers. The entire world mourns with you during these sad times.

While many bad things going on in this world, I've been reminding myself of the many good things that also occur in our world. People have been brought together to create a cure for this virus. We see how important family & tradition is - we're human, we all forget the importance of both here and there. And most of all, as human beings, we will once again rise above any plague. These things, along with talking to someone, have helped me during a time I went through a partial mental breakdown. This partial breakdown has lasted for numerous months. But, I believe I can officially claim victory. My depression, for the first time in years, is finally on the decline again. And I'm proud to announce that here on my blog before I announce it anywhere else.

I'll certainly have bad days, as all people do. But, I've had many more good days as of late. I've also thought of a great idea that I think will unite the community. This idea will be way beyond me. It'll take a lot of work, but it'll be amazing in the end. I hope all of you will join me on this adventure. But in the meantime, we'll keep it to a minimum. I'm not going to promote anything at all. Anyway, I just wanted to give this update to everyone before Thanksgiving. I'm very thankful to my true friends/readers. I'll make up these past several years for all of the community. In time. Anyway, have a fantastic day! Thank you so much for reading. Until next time, I'll see you around the Spiral.

A Transition To Happiness

 Hey there,

I hope all of you are doing well. I took a massive break from social media for a week and a half. While that may not seem like long - it was the longest break I've had in almost 10 years. I gotta say, I'm addicted. Something led to this much-needed break, though. 

I said it a few months ago, but I have been mentally unwell. I've had people use this to their advantage to make me a bad guy, even though I don't want to be a bad guy. However, many that I've had disagreements in the past have reached out to show their support. I truly appreciate that. With that, I want to say no matter how old you are, it's okay to be vulnerable, especially during a year like this. One thing I've done is continue to push forward despite the mistakes I've made. 

I'm done with people using my mental illness as a way to build themselves up. I've recently started a new medicine and I'm starting to feel more like myself again. I will continue working on myself. And I might have a Santa Run this year - but I'm going to mostly focus on my happiness. That means hanging around people I truly care about. I don't agree with 99% of the community. But I will always be here for people who need someone. I do hope you will be here for me during this crazy time. 

Now, I'm going to continue working on myself. And just letting everyone know, mentally, when it comes to life, I'm A-Okay! I love life... I mean, I'm a life wizard, after all. ;) My next step is to remove toxicity from my life. There are people in the community that uses people for their own advantage. I've seen it happen to numerous people in the community. I'm here to say, I'm no longer going to be used. Those days are officially over. It's time to start my transition to true happiness. The community made me happy at one point, and I believe it will again. 

I certainly have said I wanted to quit numerous times, but I come back. I don't want to be a "community leader". I want to be accepted as an individual in a place I was once accepted. Individuality isn't as popular as it once was. We need to change that. There needs to be one area in this crazy world where people can come to feel better. A place people can get away from politics, religion, etc. I'm no longer mentioning any of it ever again because we know what that got me into over the years - being judged by my cover. I'm going to continue working on my mental health, but in time, we, not I, will change the community for the better. 

Moving The Mirror For Positive Change

 Hello Wizards!

Long time no talk! I hope all of you have been staying healthy & safe during these past crazy few months. Today, I wanted to talk with the community about something that has been on my mind for quite some time - individuality.

Over the past several years, individuality has been looked down upon by a large portion of the community, and frankly, the world. The only way to be accepted by these types of people is if you put a mirror in front of them and talk about what they believe in. You may not move the mirror or talk as an individual. Overall, you have to be them, not yourself, to fit into this mirror world.

As many of you know, I've hosted in-game events with a group of amazing friends. We didn't share common political or religious beliefs. We did, however, share one common belief - bringing the community together. That one belief paved the road for years of in-game events for the community. These events didn't work out for the majority, but it did work out for everyone that shared this same common goal. All of the awesome people that attended our in-game events had numerous beliefs - but we all wanted to hang out in the game as friends. As a Community of people. All Unique.

As an individual, I have my own beliefs, that are clearly not popular among many in the community. But, I'm not here to be popular. As I've stated, my goal is to bring the community together. It took years, but it's nice to see that SpiralVision was no failure of bringing people who have different beliefs together for years. We're one of the most diverse groups of thinkers and people in this community. This is the type of diversity that will succeed both here and in the world. Let's move the mirror. Let's accept individuality. Let's change this community.