Hello there.
It's been awhile. This post marks 17 different years (2010-2026) of blogging. I always planned to make update posts when I eventually decided to leave the community.
Last year I wondered why Jesus wanted me to leave the community and I finally understood why early this year. I made friends who shared the same Christian values. Making these friends helped me to realize that I wasn't a good friend to those in the community.
This is in no way of saying I'm planning on returning to the community. I am not. This is, however, an apology to those I've hurt over the years. The words I've used was to hurt those who have hurt me - which was also wrong. It's all been a major learning experience.
It took losing my dad, losing my job, and losing friends to gain something I've always needed. Stillness. God. I was always quick to react with emotion and never really think things through. God is helping me heal from that by Being Still. I am happier now than ever before. I still struggle and have moments as all humans do, but I feel all of this was a blessing in disguise.
The majority of my time in the community was a lot of fun. I'm not just speaking of our events - I'm talking all other events I got to attend, livestreams I got to watch, etc. What a difference 1 year can make. From holding the community to unreachable standards to letting go and asking God to help me. Anyway, I pray that all of you find true happiness.
I'll be back here and there to make a post, but won't share it on social media. I'll just share it here on this blog. Thank you for reading. Until next time...
